If I take a good hard look at myself, how I feel, my physical appearance and mental clarity, the list of all the symptoms really starts to add up. Thyroid disease and serious inflammation has ravaged my body for years. YEARS. Starting with being Hyper until turning 16, having a lobectomy due to a mass on half of my gland, then finally turning Hypo thereafter, I am no stranger to feeling continuously awful. Assessing myself, honestly and accurately, is something I do not like to do.

Organizing all of the discomfort I cope with daily into what feels like an account of my existence makes me angry.


And sorry for myself.

And like I have no true value.

And sad. Sad to the point I tear up as I type this.

Sad because I cannot explain *exactly* how I actually feel and that, what seems like a massive list of 30 symptoms, doesn’t even begin to describe my level of exhaustion, my lack of hope, my acute awareness of not only feeling but KNOWING I am not truly understood by the people around me.

My husband, not knowing the emotional damage it causes, and sincerely not trying to hurt me, says, “Stop yawning! You haven’t stopped since you got in the car! You’re always so tired.” Or my sweet daughter, not knowing my level of brain fog, cortisol and feelings of being overwhelmed, says, “Mommy, are you having a bad day?”

There is no way I could sit here and type just the right English words into just the right order to then spark your mind into a place of compassionate, perceptive understanding of the struggle of Hypothyroidism.

And what makes it all worse, what creates another layer of frustration, is my symptoms are, for the most part, invisible. Not even blood work can consistently pinpoint specifically how to make me feel better or how to gauge what is wrong. Why? Because often times I test on the low side but still within the normal range and the doctor tells me I’m fine.

I’m fine?

I could punch a hole in the wall.


That doctor gets to go home, eat dinner, take a shower, go to bed and sleep FINE because my blood work is “normal” and his/her conscience is clear. How can this be? How can a DOCTOR do nothing but discredit, invalidate and dismiss all that I’m feeling is wrong because a number on a piece of paper says I’m normal?

While some days are harder to grasp this than others, I’ve come to realize I am not my thyroid disease. Hypothyroidism doesn’t define ME. There’s a separation there and the symptoms that feel routine to me are just my body letting me know something is wrong and that it desperately wants to heal.

THIS is why I have decided to begin the Autoimmune Protocol (AIP) diet. THIS is why something has to give, has to change. I’m tired of being tired. It’s been long enough. The symptoms I’ve listed below are my ‘why’ and motivation to see this through. I did a soft start on June 1st and have eased into being fully AIP compliant however, it’s time to take it seriously. No looking back, no falling off the wagon, no succumbing to cravings, temptation and social events.

It’s time to heal.

My Current Autoimmune Symptoms

Memory Loss

Plantar Fasciitis

Buffalo Hump

Premature Wrinkly Hands

Love Handles

Protruding Belly

Black Hairs on Face


Constant Yawning

Trouble Staying Asleep

Nighttime Anxiety

40lbs of Extra Weight

Slow Hair Growth

No Desire to Dress Up

Low Labido

Feeling Overwhelmed Easily


Running into Door Frames

Driving Confusion


Dull Skin

Dry Skin

Overall Lack of Motivation

Brain Fog

Lapses in Awareness


Stiff Joints

Slow Heart Rate

Head Rushes


In addition to AIP, I am actively seeking out a new doctor. It has taken me years to gather enough energy to do this. Pouring out my life story to someone new, all the paper work, all the supposed understanding and promises to help are exhausting.



But I will persevere this time. I will be an advocate for my health and a warrior for my well-being. At 30 years old, I feel wrecked. I feel ancient. But I also feel like self care, dense nutrition, a helpful doctor and determination will manifest healing and remission.

One day at a time.

Just in case you’re not sure what Hypothyroidism is.. 

What is Hypothyroidism? 6 Causes & 20 Signs of an Underactive Thyroid

Just in case you’re wondering with the Autoimmune Protocol (AIP) diet is..

I’ve Started the Autoimmune Protocol (AIP) Diet! Should You?

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As someone who struggles with thyroid disease and adrenal fatigue, Jordan knows that a healthy lifestyle is forever a work in progress but completely crucial to her well being. She is eager to share her journey so YOU may be motivated to seek healing for yourself and enjoy wellness from the inside out! ♥

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Jordan, Love your evaluation about your health. I wonder if you might also have Hyperparathyroidism, in addition to your hypothyroid. I just found out that I have that in addition to mine low Thyroid. Look at parathyroid.com and read what it says about it. I am getting surgery done in a little over a week. And I am hoping to get more energy. I think I have had low Thyroid since I was in my early 20s, but no doc put me on a Thyroid Med until about sixyears ago. I felt like I was low, but it’s that same… Read more »


It feels like I’m reading about myself on this page. Thank you for sharing and making me feel like I’m not the only one. Sometimes I feel like I couldn’t possible be feeling all this, I must be making it worse than it is, but it’s there and it’s the truth.


I’m so glad that I found your page – reading your story had me in tears because I feel this everyday and it’s been such a lonely journey. I thank you for all your helpfully suggestions and recipes as I know that AIP is what I need to do.

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I have been suffering for 20 years…i knew most of this went along with thyroid disease BUT had no idea Plantar Fasciitis was among the symptoms…of course I had that too! Might I ask what Buffalo Hump is? I assume it is the lump at the top of your back where it meets your neck…


This is me 🙁 I don’t understand why doctors can’t understand this and treat properly. I am consistently “normal” but on the low side. I have to take naps every day so I can make it through the day. I am exhausted all the time. I have hormone issues and hair loss. I’m tired of being tired. 🙁


Hi Jordan,
I don’t have alot to say other than reading this made me feel less alone, and that i’m sorry you are also dealing with this. Many people dont realize the long list of side effects that accompany hypothyroidism. Has the AIP diet helped?